It’s a
Jewish practice for mourners to shovel some dirt onto the coffin of the
departed, carrying the dirt on the back of the shovel to show reluctance for
the task. The sound of dirt striking
a coffin is the saddest sound in the world. It is also the most final. It brings home to the mourners the unassailable fact that their
loved one is gone.
I heard that sound Wednesday. It was at the funeral of my first cousin,
Malcolm Fritz, a year and a half younger than me. As children we never lived more than a ten
minute walk from each other’s homes and I used to play with him. I remember our climbing a tree in his back
yard. For the past thirteen years he had
been battling prostate cancer until at last he had no more strength to
fight and the cancer killed him at last.
After the gravesite ceremony, I wandered over to my parents’
graves. The first two American
generations of my mother’s family are buried in this beautifully maintained
cemetery in Wakefield, Massachusetts, a small town about twelve and half miles from downtown Boston. There lie my grandparents, my parents, my two uncles, my three aunts, and my
aunts’ and uncles’ spouses. Malcolm was
not the first of my maternal grandparents’ sixteen grandchildren to die – his
older sister and a younger cousin preceded him, but neither is buried at this
cemetery. Malcolm is the first of the
third generation, our generation, to be buried next to his parents. You can read about it from another point of
view, that of my niece, who kindly drove me up and back: lazygal.blogspot.com/2012/05/circle-of-life.html?utm_source=feedburner&utm_medium=feed&utm_campaign=Feed%3A+blogspot%2FNqJH+%28Killin%27+time+being+lazy%29
After the ceremony I wondered if my wife and I were doing
the right thing to leave our bodies to a medical school. I worried that that the death of the other
would not seem as real as it would if the thud of dirt on the coffin were
heard. My wife assured me that nothing
would make the death of the other seem real.
“Even if you’ve shoveled dirt on my coffin,” she said, “you will still look
for me; you will see me walking down the street; you will find me everywhere
and nowhere. Only with time will you
realize I’m gone for good, but even that won’t stop you from holding imaginary
conversations with me.” She convinced me
that leaving our bodies to a medical school would not cause the other to suffer
additional pain.
Once the medical students have learned what there is to be
learned from our ancient cadavers, our instructions are that our remains be
cremated. My wife asked me if I’d like my
ashes to buried in our family’s plot.
There’s room for several more corpses.
I asked her if it wouldn’t be too much of an imposition for her, our children
and grandchildren, my siblings and their children to travel all the way to Wakefield just to deposit my
ashes. For most of the people who would come to the burial, Wakefield is relatively inaccessible. "We won’t visit your grave
afterwards, no matter where it is," she said, "so after the burial it won’t matter. We’ll
have plenty of time to arrange the funeral.”
She said she wouldn’t mind her ashes being placed there as well. The idea of my being buried not only near my
wife but also near my parents is pleasing to me. Before we change our instructions I’ll have
to check it out with our children and my siblings, but if they don’t object, we’ll
probably be buried there.
In the meantime, I remain the senior cousin, from the point
of view of age, a position I hope to maintain for many more years.
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ReplyDeleteIsn't it interesting to look at life from where we are today? As the oldest female member of my family I find it rather comforting to think of my death as something that may help to keep the younger ones together as the years go by.
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DeleteThanks for your comment. It hadn't occurred to me that anyone would visit my grave, since the only time I visited my parents' graves was when I went to the funerals of relatives there. And my wife assures me that no one will visit my grave no matter how accessible it is. Still, it's a nice thought that my grave might provide another link between my children.